I wish I had

I wish I had hope
I wish I had peace
I wish I had a heart
to carry love to those in need

I wish I was sweeter
more gentle, and kind
but I'll never be
the perfect kind

Cause my hopes not in me
and my hearts not set free
I can't bring peace
when I carry a sword

My world is me
and my eyes are blind
to others who struggle
while I walk right by

I was born with this need
To love and be loved
But no one has filled it
So I lock the doors

I lock the doors
to my white washed tomb
I lock the doors
to this empty room

Pride is blinding
and anger imprisons
I don't know the difference
between rage and me

So I need a light
a star on the rise
A hill filled with stardust
to lift up my brow

One that provides
truth and redemption
and opens the door
to peal back my pride

I need a Shepherd
To lay down my head
and walk me by waters
That quiet my dreams

Cause It's not about a wish
A dream carried by wings
its about a truth
a prayer I can scream
A truth I can speak
to a God who will hear
He's reached down to save me
to carry my cross
That is eternal
That is a hope
A hope to hold onto
and never let go
He is my faith
He is my hope
He is the heart
inside me that grows

He makes me gentle
He makes me kind
He is the hand of help
that holds mine

Follow the light
Breath in the peace
Cause He is a Prince
and a King who won't leave