I wish I had hope
I wish I had peace
I wish I had a heart
to carry love to those in need
I wish I was sweeter
more gentle, and kind
but I'll never be
the perfect kind
Cause my hopes not in me
and my hearts not set free
I can't bring peace
when I carry a sword
My world is me
and my eyes are blind
to others who struggle
while I walk right by
I was born with this need
To love and be loved
But no one has filled it
So I lock the doors
I lock the doors
to my white washed tomb
I lock the doors
to this empty room
Pride is blinding
and anger imprisons
I don't know the difference
between rage and me
So I need a light
a star on the rise
A hill filled with stardust
to lift up my brow
One that provides
truth and redemption
and opens the door
to peal back my pride
I need a Shepherd
To lay down my head
and walk me by waters
That quiet my dreams
Cause It's not about a wish
A dream carried by wings
its about a truth
a prayer I can scream
A truth I can speak
to a God who will hear
He's reached down to save me
to carry my cross
That is eternal
That is a hope
A hope to hold onto
and never let go
He is my faith
He is my hope
He is the heart
inside me that grows
He makes me gentle
He makes me kind
He is the hand of help
that holds mine
Follow the light
Breath in the peace
Cause He is a Prince
and a King who won't leave
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Thursday, December 04, 2008
sun shines brighter
In the midst of the mundane and in the midst of the turmoil
The sun can always shine in your soul, flowers can blossom in your heart
If things are at peace, and no pain is hitting you, the sun shines then too
Today is a new day, it's a day to live, to make new dreams and provide more kindness
The clouds can't keep the sun away
So don't tell it it can
Take off your sunglasses and smile about today
Smile in the thought that you are alive
This is a gift, not a burden, this thing we've called life, it is a gift
already opened unwrapped and in your lap
Don't leave it outside and forget its presence
Don't hide it in a closet and let the shadows live your life
You are a soul who's all its own, and if we don't know you, there won't be another you to know
You are the first, and you are the last, let us breath in your nature
Let us look in your eyes and hold peace together
Because today is all we have right now
Take off your sunglasses so you can truly see the sun, there is no reason to shade it from your heart
The sun shines brighter when you smile
Monday, December 01, 2008
knowledge and art, science and the heart
All were made, all were formed
all uniquely, to the core
different gifts in little bags
that came with us
our first day, our first day to breath
I ran and climbed
and colored pictures
he sat and read
and never smiled
she swung and sung
about the autumn
and her eyes sparkled
for her Father
each of us revealing truth
about the God of the universe
none of us
the same are formed
but all of us uniquely born
I only ask one question then
to the God of the ancient sun above
what do you ask, of us
Dear Father
what would you hope we do
with all the gifts you freely gave
and love and grace so true
would you require that I sit
learn from books
and level my life on grades?
or would you say that I must go
to the ends of the earth
to ancient Rome and search
for every wise ones thought
and learn from history?
now would you mind
would you mind at all
if I were to spend my time
feeling the music
of my world
and bask in sunlight
and paint and read
and fill my head
with the heavenlys?
would you mind
would you mind at all
if I only travelled the world
and had no money
but only searched to know the souls
of those who roam
who roam in places I don't yet know?
I don't think You'd mind
You wouldn't mind at all
if I ran around and stood so tall
so tall that I could see
above the clouds and
and the American dream
and looked through all the fog
and found that truth was not in me
but it was found in You
its found in flowers and clouds
and sails, and babies eyes
with which we find sweet innocence
truth is found
in all the tales, the tales we tell our daughters
pirate ships and princess shoes
hold more than just a story
the tales we tell our sons
we've found mean more than
all we thought
its freedom and life
and love and feet
feet that take us anywhere
so Father, I thank You
for giving us our freedom
to live and learn the ways we do
no matter who we answer to
because in the end we'll all be answering to You
all uniquely, to the core
different gifts in little bags
that came with us
our first day, our first day to breath
I ran and climbed
and colored pictures
he sat and read
and never smiled
she swung and sung
about the autumn
and her eyes sparkled
for her Father
each of us revealing truth
about the God of the universe
none of us
the same are formed
but all of us uniquely born
I only ask one question then
to the God of the ancient sun above
what do you ask, of us
Dear Father
what would you hope we do
with all the gifts you freely gave
and love and grace so true
would you require that I sit
learn from books
and level my life on grades?
or would you say that I must go
to the ends of the earth
to ancient Rome and search
for every wise ones thought
and learn from history?
now would you mind
would you mind at all
if I were to spend my time
feeling the music
of my world
and bask in sunlight
and paint and read
and fill my head
with the heavenlys?
would you mind
would you mind at all
if I only travelled the world
and had no money
but only searched to know the souls
of those who roam
who roam in places I don't yet know?
I don't think You'd mind
You wouldn't mind at all
if I ran around and stood so tall
so tall that I could see
above the clouds and
and the American dream
and looked through all the fog
and found that truth was not in me
but it was found in You
its found in flowers and clouds
and sails, and babies eyes
with which we find sweet innocence
truth is found
in all the tales, the tales we tell our daughters
pirate ships and princess shoes
hold more than just a story
the tales we tell our sons
we've found mean more than
all we thought
its freedom and life
and love and feet
feet that take us anywhere
so Father, I thank You
for giving us our freedom
to live and learn the ways we do
no matter who we answer to
because in the end we'll all be answering to You
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
In the midst
Read this, in the midst of it all, I find peace in the truthful words of a humble, Christ following group of people, and in this case, Chad DeMiguel. It's a short blog entry offering wise principles and simple, pure words for our own thoughts and consciousness for this election.
me.
me.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
she and me
She walks in, heaviness meets her. Everyone is there, none of them stare. Some say hi, shoot a smile...but they are quickly back to their lives. Their gold. She is not gold to them.
Walking, empty noise surrounds her. She hears but does not know. She walks but does not go. She speaks but does not weep...the words she'd really like to say. Her weight inside, it's heavy like gold.
Older ones know. They've been there before, or known a flower such as her. It will change someday, she says that's what they'd tell her. She knows they're wise. They hold so much gold inside. But she is not gold, not to them nor to her.
Send me the gold, throw it on me, The weight of all that certainty would lift me up, into the sky, and I would fly away so far, so far that I could see, the ugliness of humanity and what it should have been. I'd fly so hi that I would know, the clouds are better beds for me and mom and dad are fragile too. Brothers and sisters all reading their lines, this is what I want to hear so this is what I'll say. Hearing things from either way will satisfy my cavity and I will sigh in deepest need, but too afraid to ask for ears. To afraid to ask them why all of this falls down on me.
He will come, He'll lift me up, just like He does on every day. Every day that ends with me and starts with my breath being freed. He'll lift me up, into the sky, and I would fly away so close, so close that I could see, the beauty of The Heavenly and how much He truly loves me.
This weightlessness just feels like gold.
Walking, empty noise surrounds her. She hears but does not know. She walks but does not go. She speaks but does not weep...the words she'd really like to say. Her weight inside, it's heavy like gold.
Older ones know. They've been there before, or known a flower such as her. It will change someday, she says that's what they'd tell her. She knows they're wise. They hold so much gold inside. But she is not gold, not to them nor to her.
Send me the gold, throw it on me, The weight of all that certainty would lift me up, into the sky, and I would fly away so far, so far that I could see, the ugliness of humanity and what it should have been. I'd fly so hi that I would know, the clouds are better beds for me and mom and dad are fragile too. Brothers and sisters all reading their lines, this is what I want to hear so this is what I'll say. Hearing things from either way will satisfy my cavity and I will sigh in deepest need, but too afraid to ask for ears. To afraid to ask them why all of this falls down on me.
He will come, He'll lift me up, just like He does on every day. Every day that ends with me and starts with my breath being freed. He'll lift me up, into the sky, and I would fly away so close, so close that I could see, the beauty of The Heavenly and how much He truly loves me.
This weightlessness just feels like gold.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
the darkest night before morning
i breath in the chill..
my heart faintly beats.
it is cold and
it is still.
I hear no life,
I feel no warmth.
The only pulse is slow
and without rhythm.
The wind blows past,
as I walk in the night.
The ground is still,
I am all that I hear.
Shades of black
make the squares that I see,
tall and empty houses
on this street.
Dark windows,
no lights to be seen.
No life in my dream,
just the chill...
just me.
I walk, my footsteps repeat.
I walk, I look down at my feet,
I slowly point my eyes towards the sky
and before me, where is He?
I guess I wasn't expecting anybody...
if any presence is with me I know it's not Him.
The water beside me is black,
it barely moves,
it is still.
Am I going somewhere?
I think that I've walked this way before
and it has brought me back again.
It has brought me nowhere.
Maybe this time someOne will come,
maybe He'll change the path for me.
Under the bridge, might be something...
I think I'll go under...
what could he do to me
that He couldn't save me from?
I'll be okay, I'll walk in and
go under that way.
Nothing. I hear nothing and see nothing,
I feel nothing but still,
I think there is something...
God be with me. There is power in Your name.
my heart faintly beats.
it is cold and
it is still.
I hear no life,
I feel no warmth.
The only pulse is slow
and without rhythm.
The wind blows past,
as I walk in the night.
The ground is still,
I am all that I hear.
Shades of black
make the squares that I see,
tall and empty houses
on this street.
Dark windows,
no lights to be seen.
No life in my dream,
just the chill...
just me.
I walk, my footsteps repeat.
I walk, I look down at my feet,
I slowly point my eyes towards the sky
and before me, where is He?
I guess I wasn't expecting anybody...
if any presence is with me I know it's not Him.
The water beside me is black,
it barely moves,
it is still.
Am I going somewhere?
I think that I've walked this way before
and it has brought me back again.
It has brought me nowhere.
Maybe this time someOne will come,
maybe He'll change the path for me.
Under the bridge, might be something...
I think I'll go under...
what could he do to me
that He couldn't save me from?
I'll be okay, I'll walk in and
go under that way.
Nothing. I hear nothing and see nothing,
I feel nothing but still,
I think there is something...
God be with me. There is power in Your name.
Monday, July 14, 2008
GOD
OH MY GOSH, I'm pretty sure I definitely KNOW that I will do missionary work most of my life because being home is so SO stressful. It is so fast-paced and crazy and stressful. If there is one word I don't want to use when describing my life, it is the word stressful or anything like it. Life is not meant to be stressful, fast-paced and so busy that you don't have time to experience God and smell the roses in life. The entire reason we are on this earth in the first place is to enjoy God and KNOW Him. It is so easy for people to make life about them and thinking that their days should consist of ways to make THEMSELVES happy and accomplish their goals. WHHAAAAT? That is so messed up and far away from Gods point of life. Gods point is point A. We have been following point ZZZ by following our own selfish happiness. Honestly, we wouldn't even be alive without Him and we run around life crazy people trying to acquire our own satisfaction and happiness on this earth. ON HIS earth...that we think is ours.
O God, my peaceful, loving Father, please help humanity. Cure us of this disease. We move so fast, God. And for what? We think maybe we know what "it is," this goal we are always after...trying to accomplish...but we don't have a clue! And this whole time we are following after it...we are missing You. We walk right by You in a bumble bee or a rainbow and don't even notice your creation. Yu say hello through an old mans smile and we do not see. You give us a giat hug when the sun is shining and we stand, with our backs to You and our faces trying to embrace the world instead. We do not feel the warmth of Your love through the sunshine, Lord. That is so tragic. Honestly, I'm surprised You haven't destroyed this earth yet.
You have so much patience, Lord. You love us so much that even when we throw dirt in Your face and walk away You say, "I love you." Whether to silently to Yourself or out loud to us, I don't know but Lord, You love us. You truly and fully love us dirty, filthy, hateful sinners. You give us a love that cannot be tarnished by fire or rusted by water. Your love cannot be destroyed or broken or misplaced. God, we can bruise it and scratch it and reject it but You will never stop offering it to us. You heal instantly God. It is like when You were bruised and broken on the cross and still, YOU ROSE AGAIN! That is how Your love is, but it's instant.
God. You amaze me. If that is what You were trying to accomplish, then CHEERS! because You did it. Your love IS extravagant...like that song, Lord. You are so good, Father.
I love You with all my heart, let me not forget Your Godness, Katelyn
O God, my peaceful, loving Father, please help humanity. Cure us of this disease. We move so fast, God. And for what? We think maybe we know what "it is," this goal we are always after...trying to accomplish...but we don't have a clue! And this whole time we are following after it...we are missing You. We walk right by You in a bumble bee or a rainbow and don't even notice your creation. Yu say hello through an old mans smile and we do not see. You give us a giat hug when the sun is shining and we stand, with our backs to You and our faces trying to embrace the world instead. We do not feel the warmth of Your love through the sunshine, Lord. That is so tragic. Honestly, I'm surprised You haven't destroyed this earth yet.
You have so much patience, Lord. You love us so much that even when we throw dirt in Your face and walk away You say, "I love you." Whether to silently to Yourself or out loud to us, I don't know but Lord, You love us. You truly and fully love us dirty, filthy, hateful sinners. You give us a love that cannot be tarnished by fire or rusted by water. Your love cannot be destroyed or broken or misplaced. God, we can bruise it and scratch it and reject it but You will never stop offering it to us. You heal instantly God. It is like when You were bruised and broken on the cross and still, YOU ROSE AGAIN! That is how Your love is, but it's instant.
God. You amaze me. If that is what You were trying to accomplish, then CHEERS! because You did it. Your love IS extravagant...like that song, Lord. You are so good, Father.
I love You with all my heart, let me not forget Your Godness, Katelyn
Sunday, July 13, 2008
i am so bad at blogging :/
Hey everyone, sorry my max amount of blogging was twice in the czech. =0 I was doing a lot and it is hard for me to put into words all that God does. Especially on mission trips. Just know that He did A LOT and there are so many new czechs interested in going to youth group now and God is totally thriving in the cesky tesin area! pray pray pray for the czech republic and the young students who are searching for more than atheism can offer. bless you all, kate
Saturday, June 28, 2008
students!!
hello!! carter and i met our students tonight. we have level two together and we have 4 girls and 3 boys. petra, mirka, luska and another girl who i dont remember =0 our guys are mical (michael), honska and our translator guys name that I dont remember. we all get along really well and had pretty good discussions. they understand quite well for the 'level' the are at. carter totally took it away tonight in discussion groups. i totally clammed up and carter definitely spoke well with the czechs in our class. He spoke just like a normal conversation with friends and made it really easy for the kids to interact. I think I just felt like I had this box I needed to fit into for teaching and speaking with the students and thats totally not how it should be. God has freedom within His plan and I pray that I can grasp that as I teach! I need not have expectations for myself because God is the One at work here, not me :) thank goodness. please pray that I surrender to God i my teaching and let go of the reigns. I consciously desire to give Him control of teaching and leading but for some reason without thought I cannot let go. i just automatically take control. I guess thats human desires for ya, to be in control of things. well, thats my thought today, please pray pray pray!!!!! the other half of our team left for zlin yesterday so pray for them as well!!! oh gosh, I just feel satan all the time so pray constantly that Christ binds Him. This camp is not a playground for the devil. God is strong and He is might and power and He is walking with us and filling us up. anyway, i gotta go :) pray pray pray!!
katka :)
czech words of the day, Děkuji: (day.kwee) thank you
Ahoy!: hello and goodbye. (like aloha) haha!
peace. :)
katka :)
czech words of the day, Děkuji: (day.kwee) thank you
Ahoy!: hello and goodbye. (like aloha) haha!
peace. :)
Thursday, June 26, 2008
czech republic!!
hey everyone! Im here in czech and it is thursday night. we got here late tuesday night (actually 1:30am on wed.) and this is our second day of training and rest. we've still got lots of camp dance practice and camp song practice to do tonight and just learning to lean on each other while satan tries to attack. he wants this camp but he won't have it! camp starts saturday i think, please just pray pray pray! unity, safety (our team has to split up and half of them are leaving tomorrow :( :[ ) strength, renewed spirits and physical energy as well as emotional and mental. pray whatever God places on your heart for this team and our time here. pray pray pray. thats all i can think of to say. I wish you could all see it here. it is lush and green and beautiful, if i have an opportunity ill put a picture up ;) God has already put love in my heart for the czech and i cant wait to see Him work the week of camp. I have already seen Him work through stories and testimonies of czech christians and american interns who are here at cesky tesin. He is wonderful and He is powerful and mighty and great and loving and just and He is conquerer of all things of evil! Love you all,
pray pray pray!
ephesians 6:10-20
katka (my czech name) :)
pray pray pray!
ephesians 6:10-20
katka (my czech name) :)
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
frosting for your face
I trip
I fall
on everything i hate
I allow me to be led
into a lie
to make my bed
in sheets of black
rest my head
on a pillow
of glass
but covered with sheets
of frosting for your face
it covers up the lies
makes them look nice
makes you look pretty
and blinds your eyes
why do we lead
and why are we led
into places of darkness
that we know are not true?
we know we'll be swallowed
digested and forgotten
falling ragged and worn
out of the lions mouth
but the frosting looks good
we muffle the cries
of truth inside
redeem this life
fill it once again
please wash me clean
forgive my hate
pull out the root
prune me and
replant a seed of beauty
having nothing to do
with petals and leaves
replant a seed
that is whole inside
and clean
not me.
Sunday, May 04, 2008
crying Maker, ignorant people
Crying Creator
Ignorant Creation
Falling, Tripping
On the words
They have formed as true
Fill the holes
bridge the gaps
Don't leave
without an answer
Why can't you sit on truth
Instead you rest on lies
Free your soul
Hear His voice
He made you as you are
Every stitch and every curve
He made them all His own
Created you
With thoughts
He knit you with a promise
He gave to you
No price required
Of His Lasting love
Established in the heart of He
Whose heart is in the stars
But even more His heart in you
He gave all He required
His thoughts of you
Count more than sand
and tears more than the ocean
Come back to Him
Who makes you new
Calls you back, His child
The thought of someone denying the One who intimately designed and intricately formed them leaves my heart feeling sore. Rejecting your Creator and calling Him a tyrant? How could satan use them so? It makes me ache so bad knowing they do not feel the love and grace that I know every day in every seed of my every sin. Waking up without a purpose... going to sleep the same. Living every day as a particle to float away? As dust to fill the ground and bones to take up room? God be with them and reveal to them, Your everlasting love. You're not a God who screams and throws but a God who loves and holds. Reveal to them, their empty woes and cleanse the falling fools. Love them just as you love me, and cleanse their falling souls.
Ignorant Creation
Falling, Tripping
On the words
They have formed as true
Fill the holes
bridge the gaps
Don't leave
without an answer
Why can't you sit on truth
Instead you rest on lies
Free your soul
Hear His voice
He made you as you are
Every stitch and every curve
He made them all His own
Created you
With thoughts
He knit you with a promise
He gave to you
No price required
Of His Lasting love
Established in the heart of He
Whose heart is in the stars
But even more His heart in you
He gave all He required
His thoughts of you
Count more than sand
and tears more than the ocean
Come back to Him
Who makes you new
Calls you back, His child
The thought of someone denying the One who intimately designed and intricately formed them leaves my heart feeling sore. Rejecting your Creator and calling Him a tyrant? How could satan use them so? It makes me ache so bad knowing they do not feel the love and grace that I know every day in every seed of my every sin. Waking up without a purpose... going to sleep the same. Living every day as a particle to float away? As dust to fill the ground and bones to take up room? God be with them and reveal to them, Your everlasting love. You're not a God who screams and throws but a God who loves and holds. Reveal to them, their empty woes and cleanse the falling fools. Love them just as you love me, and cleanse their falling souls.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Still harness His power when you feel like snoozing!
Hey there... on Sunday Jason talked about how God's power is inside of us and how His authority even, is there. He proposed the story of Lazarus and when Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead why He did what He did and waited the exact amount of time He did etc... and Jason said, "How are we gonna use that? How are we going to harness that in our lives cause it's definitely there guys!" He asked us how we handle something like that... I think sometimes we treat it like it's nothing because we reduce it to nothing.
Let me tell you what I mean. There could be two ways of reducing it to nothing here. One, you just think that's a bunch of nonsense and that God doesn't live inside of us and nonetheless allow us to share in His power any more than you think Jimmy Stewart is about to walk in your front door. That is one way of reducing the greatness of God. Another is being afraid of it. Now just slow down, I know some of you are going to bring up the "Fear God" card. Yes, we are supposed to fear Him and be in awe, but not put our tail between our legs and deny His powerful existence out of fear. We are so afraid that God actually might be that great, and we decide it's just too much to handle so we skip that part or try and ignore. Well honey that's like tryin to ignore a cheeseburger sign in chinatown. And there is another small variation of this last one... we want to be used by God and work with Him and be close to Him very much with a genuine heart even. But we laugh at the thought that God, Father, amazing Master, creative Creator, patient Friend, all-knowing, giving, everlasting, loving, forgiving God would allow US to be in His little power play. I shouldn't say little, it's quite big actually. We give a quick, "Yeah right," because we are just too afraid to add the God of heaven to our list of people who have rejected us.
Well let me just tell you honey, God loves you. He doesn't need you in His story to make it come true, but He sure does want you. Because He loves you! You are His precious child! His creation! His pride and joy! What He desires more than anything to pour His love and grace and mercy into!! That is why you're in the story. It has nothing to do with you or what you can or cannot do to get into the kingdom of heaven or in a relationship with God now! So put away the tap shoes and set down your dancin' hat, cause it will not be needed. No shows or entrance fees here. Just your love and your belief. Grace comes tumbling after, whether you like it or not. :)
God bless you all, and those of you who do not believe in Gods power or are trying to ignore it... The Lord is weeping over your souls just as Jesus did over Lazarus when he was dead,
"Jesus wept." (John 11:35).
Let me tell you what I mean. There could be two ways of reducing it to nothing here. One, you just think that's a bunch of nonsense and that God doesn't live inside of us and nonetheless allow us to share in His power any more than you think Jimmy Stewart is about to walk in your front door. That is one way of reducing the greatness of God. Another is being afraid of it. Now just slow down, I know some of you are going to bring up the "Fear God" card. Yes, we are supposed to fear Him and be in awe, but not put our tail between our legs and deny His powerful existence out of fear. We are so afraid that God actually might be that great, and we decide it's just too much to handle so we skip that part or try and ignore. Well honey that's like tryin to ignore a cheeseburger sign in chinatown. And there is another small variation of this last one... we want to be used by God and work with Him and be close to Him very much with a genuine heart even. But we laugh at the thought that God, Father, amazing Master, creative Creator, patient Friend, all-knowing, giving, everlasting, loving, forgiving God would allow US to be in His little power play. I shouldn't say little, it's quite big actually. We give a quick, "Yeah right," because we are just too afraid to add the God of heaven to our list of people who have rejected us.
Well let me just tell you honey, God loves you. He doesn't need you in His story to make it come true, but He sure does want you. Because He loves you! You are His precious child! His creation! His pride and joy! What He desires more than anything to pour His love and grace and mercy into!! That is why you're in the story. It has nothing to do with you or what you can or cannot do to get into the kingdom of heaven or in a relationship with God now! So put away the tap shoes and set down your dancin' hat, cause it will not be needed. No shows or entrance fees here. Just your love and your belief. Grace comes tumbling after, whether you like it or not. :)
God bless you all, and those of you who do not believe in Gods power or are trying to ignore it... The Lord is weeping over your souls just as Jesus did over Lazarus when he was dead,
"Jesus wept." (John 11:35).
Thursday, March 27, 2008
for some reason
for some reason
we hang on
for some reason
we still breath
fallen world
broken hearts
rising empires
fractured souls
try and fail
try again
to win the world
you must succeed
be number one
in flawless form
skinny levels
to live up to
though impossible
still fought after
why we live
for all the cries
of empty praise
that only last
till you show your back
to the crowd of dogs
that bark your name
you were the prize
of lust and shame
you were the prize
that fed their shouts
they taste your skin
they grab your heart
and catch your eye
then drag you in
i do not know
but just for one moment
of praise alone
'tis beautiful
to the empty one
why it is
we live for them
darkened Son
excuses for hell
running with guns
screaming in hate
crying with power
bleeding with pride
redemption save
our hollow hearts
redemption save
our weeping eyes
my mother and my brother
are caught up in the lies
my sister and my father
are hearing evil cries
turning just to see
a burning building
once called home
sucked in and spit out
they kneel at their graves
jumping in would steel the pain
giving silence as a gift
bitterly won
but sweet in sound
to them who break
running feet
shaking limbs
tripping on debris
from those I loved
bombs and rocks
enter the sky
like birds who once
filled our skies
who are you now?
where are you now?
what do you do
with pictures in your head
of once loved laughter
smiles and babies
sunshine and kisses
ice cream dishes
sweet and sound
a life i lived
with peace and joy
on wings of my heart
soaked to your scalp
drowning in lies
battled with hate
now sitting in skin
ravaged and worn
piercing is the word
you say
that perfectly describes
the happy world we're livin in
and the emptiness inside
displaced anger
forward blows
swolen lungs
sing the cries
of child and mother
life has just died
why would we kill
a life not yet lived
why would we judge it
unworthy to speak?
that is what we are
what our hearts have settled into
death set to music
of this ending
but I have a secret
a love beyond the sky
life can be lived
in a world
tuned to it's end
tuned to each other
scraping right by
stretching your hand
for one last bite
a small, final drip
water not clear
mud in your eyes
not making you blind
but making you see
what we're framed into now
a life, not quite lived
a world, not quite that strong
listen to me
yes open your ears
there is a life
void of these cries
lived in great peace
for all of our lives
love in the air
you breath in the grace
your heart beats with fire
you've been set on by Life
run with your feet
fields full of green
skies that are bright
beautiful smiles
faces of light
here you will rest
never removed
'cause the bearer of life
holds you real tight
golden gates
unending love
no conditions or fights
competitions or rights
here you were made
now you are held
in arms of forgiveness
eternity speaks
"come back home child
I've loved you forever
and so shall I stay"
staying in love
basking in grace
forever clean
ending the race
aching is gone
replaced with a heart
beating so bright
pure as the snow
bright is this light
flowing with peace
white as His eyes
we hang on
for some reason
we still breath
fallen world
broken hearts
rising empires
fractured souls
try and fail
try again
to win the world
you must succeed
be number one
in flawless form
skinny levels
to live up to
though impossible
still fought after
why we live
for all the cries
of empty praise
that only last
till you show your back
to the crowd of dogs
that bark your name
you were the prize
of lust and shame
you were the prize
that fed their shouts
they taste your skin
they grab your heart
and catch your eye
then drag you in
i do not know
but just for one moment
of praise alone
'tis beautiful
to the empty one
why it is
we live for them
darkened Son
excuses for hell
running with guns
screaming in hate
crying with power
bleeding with pride
redemption save
our hollow hearts
redemption save
our weeping eyes
my mother and my brother
are caught up in the lies
my sister and my father
are hearing evil cries
turning just to see
a burning building
once called home
sucked in and spit out
they kneel at their graves
jumping in would steel the pain
giving silence as a gift
bitterly won
but sweet in sound
to them who break
running feet
shaking limbs
tripping on debris
from those I loved
bombs and rocks
enter the sky
like birds who once
filled our skies
who are you now?
where are you now?
what do you do
with pictures in your head
of once loved laughter
smiles and babies
sunshine and kisses
ice cream dishes
sweet and sound
a life i lived
with peace and joy
on wings of my heart
soaked to your scalp
drowning in lies
battled with hate
now sitting in skin
ravaged and worn
piercing is the word
you say
that perfectly describes
the happy world we're livin in
and the emptiness inside
displaced anger
forward blows
swolen lungs
sing the cries
of child and mother
life has just died
why would we kill
a life not yet lived
why would we judge it
unworthy to speak?
that is what we are
what our hearts have settled into
death set to music
of this ending
but I have a secret
a love beyond the sky
life can be lived
in a world
tuned to it's end
tuned to each other
scraping right by
stretching your hand
for one last bite
a small, final drip
water not clear
mud in your eyes
not making you blind
but making you see
what we're framed into now
a life, not quite lived
a world, not quite that strong
listen to me
yes open your ears
there is a life
void of these cries
lived in great peace
for all of our lives
love in the air
you breath in the grace
your heart beats with fire
you've been set on by Life
run with your feet
fields full of green
skies that are bright
beautiful smiles
faces of light
here you will rest
never removed
'cause the bearer of life
holds you real tight
golden gates
unending love
no conditions or fights
competitions or rights
here you were made
now you are held
in arms of forgiveness
eternity speaks
"come back home child
I've loved you forever
and so shall I stay"
staying in love
basking in grace
forever clean
ending the race
aching is gone
replaced with a heart
beating so bright
pure as the snow
bright is this light
flowing with peace
white as His eyes
Monday, January 14, 2008
flying saucers...?
You must watch this video. It's kinda whimsical and I feel like it should be set in a green meadow rather than the concrete jungle of the city. Anyway, I like it :)
Chanteuse Cibelle has featured Devendra in her new video from her current album “The Shine Of Dried Electric Leaves”. Video directed by Tom Haines. Enjoy.
Type this ^^^ into google and it should come up :) I haven't found it any other way, maybe they'll put it on itunes?
Chanteuse Cibelle has featured Devendra in her new video from her current album “The Shine Of Dried Electric Leaves”. Video directed by Tom Haines. Enjoy.
Type this ^^^ into google and it should come up :) I haven't found it any other way, maybe they'll put it on itunes?
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Our God Is a Consuming Fire
Hebrews 12:1-29
Jesus, Founder and Perfecter of Our Faith
12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Do Not Grow Weary
3 Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. 4 In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons?
“My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord,
nor be weary when reproved by him.
6 For the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
and chastises every son whom he receives.”
7 It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline? 8 If you are left without discipline, in which all have participated, then you are illegitimate children and not sons. 9 Besides this, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we respected them. Shall we not much more be subject to the Father of spirits and live? 10 For they disciplined us for a short time as it seemed best to them, but he disciplines us for our good, that we may share his holiness. 11 For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
12 Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, 13 and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed. 14 Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord. 15 See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no “root of bitterness” springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled; 16 that no one is sexually immoral or unholy like Esau, who sold his birthright for a single meal. 17 For you know that afterward, when he desired to inherit the blessing, he was rejected, for he found no chance to repent, though he sought it with tears.
A Kingdom That Cannot Be Shaken
18 For you have not come to what may be touched, a blazing fire and darkness and gloom and a tempest 19 and the sound of a trumpet and a voice whose words made the hearers beg that no further messages be spoken to them. 20 For they could not endure the order that was given, “If even a beast touches the mountain, it shall be stoned.” 21 Indeed, so terrifying was the sight that Moses said, “I tremble with fear.” 22 But you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to innumerable angels in festal gathering, 23 and to the assembly of the firstborn who are enrolled in heaven, and to God, the judge of all, and to the spirits of the righteous made perfect, 24 and to Jesus, the mediator of a new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel.
25 See that you do not refuse him who is speaking. For if they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, much less will we escape if we reject him who warns from heaven. 26 At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Yet once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.” 27 This phrase, “Yet once more,” indicates the removal of things that are shaken—that is, things that have been made—in order that the things that cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, 29 for our God is a consuming fire.
I encourage you to read each sentence a few times. I understand that unless you like reading and you thirst for more information of the Lord 24/7 that you might not understand this or even choose to read it. It is a lot of words and well-written sentences that happen to be somewhat confusing if you don't read it over again :) Each verse though, touches my heart in a different way. I feel like I'm reading it with an empty heart and each word drops to the floor of my soul with a little *clink* and after reading so many words it fills me up, and keeps filling and keeps filling. Like a cup that overflows. (Psalm 23:5)
The section titled "A Kingdom That Cannot Be Shaken" reminds me of the almost unreal invincibilty spoken of about Jerusalem in Isaiah 33, specifically verse 20. It is set so high in Gods esteem, I find it captivating the love He holds for it. It reminds me of the truth that He loves us that way too. With that much passion and zeal and perseverance for our souls, like He has for His kingdom. His kingdom is His bride. As are we. Read all of Isaiah 33, it's really beautiful if you unlock the meaning of it all. There are millions of places you could search for God's love for us. Not only in the Bible, just walk outside and take a gander at the sky. Immensely incomprehensible. We can't even understand or imagine the power of His love or His mighty works. John 21:25 states that all of the works of Jesus (God in human form) would not even fit into the world if it were written in books. God is good, and He loves you. He is waiting. He sees your life and all you've been through and will walk through in the future. He sees it all, and He still wants you. More than you want peace in your life, He wants you. More than starving children want food and lost ones want homes. More than a man wants a woman and vise versa. More than any man or any woman or child has ever desired something in all of history or creation, God wants you.
I need to remember these things also. I forget them daily. But God's power is greater than that of him who lies to us and longs to steal our truth from our lives. Ephesians 6:16 (the whole chapter is real good ;]) I pray that your day is blessed :)
Katelyn Marie
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Jesus, Founder and Perfecter of Our Faith
12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Do Not Grow Weary
3 Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. 4 In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons?
“My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord,
nor be weary when reproved by him.
6 For the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
and chastises every son whom he receives.”
7 It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline? 8 If you are left without discipline, in which all have participated, then you are illegitimate children and not sons. 9 Besides this, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we respected them. Shall we not much more be subject to the Father of spirits and live? 10 For they disciplined us for a short time as it seemed best to them, but he disciplines us for our good, that we may share his holiness. 11 For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
12 Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, 13 and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed. 14 Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord. 15 See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no “root of bitterness” springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled; 16 that no one is sexually immoral or unholy like Esau, who sold his birthright for a single meal. 17 For you know that afterward, when he desired to inherit the blessing, he was rejected, for he found no chance to repent, though he sought it with tears.
A Kingdom That Cannot Be Shaken
18 For you have not come to what may be touched, a blazing fire and darkness and gloom and a tempest 19 and the sound of a trumpet and a voice whose words made the hearers beg that no further messages be spoken to them. 20 For they could not endure the order that was given, “If even a beast touches the mountain, it shall be stoned.” 21 Indeed, so terrifying was the sight that Moses said, “I tremble with fear.” 22 But you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to innumerable angels in festal gathering, 23 and to the assembly of the firstborn who are enrolled in heaven, and to God, the judge of all, and to the spirits of the righteous made perfect, 24 and to Jesus, the mediator of a new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel.
25 See that you do not refuse him who is speaking. For if they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, much less will we escape if we reject him who warns from heaven. 26 At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Yet once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.” 27 This phrase, “Yet once more,” indicates the removal of things that are shaken—that is, things that have been made—in order that the things that cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, 29 for our God is a consuming fire.
I encourage you to read each sentence a few times. I understand that unless you like reading and you thirst for more information of the Lord 24/7 that you might not understand this or even choose to read it. It is a lot of words and well-written sentences that happen to be somewhat confusing if you don't read it over again :) Each verse though, touches my heart in a different way. I feel like I'm reading it with an empty heart and each word drops to the floor of my soul with a little *clink* and after reading so many words it fills me up, and keeps filling and keeps filling. Like a cup that overflows. (Psalm 23:5)
The section titled "A Kingdom That Cannot Be Shaken" reminds me of the almost unreal invincibilty spoken of about Jerusalem in Isaiah 33, specifically verse 20. It is set so high in Gods esteem, I find it captivating the love He holds for it. It reminds me of the truth that He loves us that way too. With that much passion and zeal and perseverance for our souls, like He has for His kingdom. His kingdom is His bride. As are we. Read all of Isaiah 33, it's really beautiful if you unlock the meaning of it all. There are millions of places you could search for God's love for us. Not only in the Bible, just walk outside and take a gander at the sky. Immensely incomprehensible. We can't even understand or imagine the power of His love or His mighty works. John 21:25 states that all of the works of Jesus (God in human form) would not even fit into the world if it were written in books. God is good, and He loves you. He is waiting. He sees your life and all you've been through and will walk through in the future. He sees it all, and He still wants you. More than you want peace in your life, He wants you. More than starving children want food and lost ones want homes. More than a man wants a woman and vise versa. More than any man or any woman or child has ever desired something in all of history or creation, God wants you.
I need to remember these things also. I forget them daily. But God's power is greater than that of him who lies to us and longs to steal our truth from our lives. Ephesians 6:16 (the whole chapter is real good ;]) I pray that your day is blessed :)
Katelyn Marie
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
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